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Anyone who's attended college knows by the first week that there is a collection of questions that people ask when first meeting each other:

1. What's your name?
2. Where are you from?
3. Where do you live on campus?
4. What's your classification?
5. What's your major?

I went swing dancing tonight. With the abundance of people there in that church gymnasium, I had the opportunity to meet several new people. As is the college custom, these questions were asked to unfamiliar dance partners. Why do people ask these questions? I think that we ask each other these questions because we want to know more about each other. The problem is that when someone asks me what my major is, I feel that all that they know is what my major is. My minors explain more about me than my major: linguistics and history. Majoring in computer science wasn't my first choice. Essentially, I went into computer science for the scholarship money. Don't get me wrong, I know my way around a computer, and I don't hate it… most of the time.

Really, I don't see myself ending up in a career working with computers; I would end up going insane working in a job like that. Honestly, I see myself doing relief work or missions work in some distant country with a need for help. Working in our campus' Acting on AIDS chapter has really made me enthusiastic about helping others in disadvantaged countries. I feel that this is my rôle in life.

Come Monday, I'm going to go about my daily routine. I'll probably continue this routine for the years to come. If I am supposed to do this relief work, I'm thinking that I need to change that routine. I see myself helping others in other places, but I don't see my life headed in that direction. I don't see a progression towards that. People say that we should ignore the big picture of our lives and just take each day as it comes. If I did that, I probably wouldn't end up living my life the way that it's supposed to be lived.

I think that I need to start changing the direction that I'm headed in.